从我的新电脑tizzy打的第一篇网志，这么刚好，tizzy也是在这一天买／诞生的，呵呵。所以和我遇见刀大的日子是一样的，那就是20091101！

终于见到我如此崇拜的作家，呵呵心情当然很兴奋。真的很喜欢听刀大说话，就好像他写的东西一样，很耐人寻味。真的很希望可以再听他演讲，当然也希望猎命师可以赶快写完。遇到一个如此热爱写作的人让我感到非常热血！或许我没有刀大那么爱写作吧，又或许，我爱的东西太多了

XDD 刀大果然还是刀大

今晚的五月天，没有让我失望。或许，是因为没有太大的期望？

演唱会中，一年又一年，一个时期又一个时期的五月天从我的脑海中闪过。
那些是我的青春，我的年少轻狂。五月天的歌，在我生命的每一段留下了脚印。
或许这也是为什么，五月天在我的生活中无可代替吧？
呵，就算爱上多少个乐团，或歌手。多少个苏打绿，多少个张悬，多少个林一峰。五月天还是五月天。

今天的演唱会是我去过的演唱会当中最华丽的。舞台、灯光、效果。让人哗然，但其实并不是我最想要的。

我其实只是想找回当初的感动。

电影般的开场，从轧车，爆肝，赌神，爱情万岁到Hosee。这些开场曲真令人讶异！尤其是Hosee。呵呵。想起了五月天曾经想挑战的霹雳舞。

我喜欢今天晚上的歌单，常常引人联想~
你不是真正的快乐接生存生存以上生活一下
再接穿插着候鸟的疯狂世界。超酷！
候鸟在我的五月天歌曲里是排名No. 1~因为无时无刻都深刻描写我的生活领悟
飛過那片　茫茫人海　下個路口　直走或轉彎 長大太慢　老得太快　等得太久　結果太難猜

一颗苹果落下时，我感动了。
我想到　遙遠遙遠的以後 會不會有人知道我　在這個寂寞的星球　曾這樣的活過
遙遠遙遠的以後　天長和地久的盡頭 應該沒有人能搶走　我永遠的感動
或许，遥远得以后没有人会记得我。但是！没有人能抢走我今天晚上的感动。

然后，我第一次被我心中尚未崩壞的地方这首歌感动了。我想我忽略了这首歌，在后青春期的诗里。
其實我們都一模一樣 無名卻充滿了莫名渴望 一生等一次 發光
默默的讓這旋律 和我心交響 至少在我的心中 自己為自己鼓掌
就算會有一天 沒人與我合唱 至少在我的心中 還有個尚未崩壞的地方
只要心中存着希望，心里的某一角落总是会有单纯想做梦的力量。

知足，这一首曾经让我感到很腻的歌，竟然成功再次触动我。或许我是真的太久没有听五月天的歌了。
天上的星星　笑地上的人　總是不能懂　不能覺得足夠
我想我应该知足了，因为我拥有太多太多五月天的回忆。
因为五月天认识了很棒的朋友wanga，因为五月天让我在最低落的时候有站起来的勇气，因为潮起一定有潮落。
因为五月天知道了更多很棒的台湾音乐人，因为五月天让我觉得原来做梦不可耻。
所以紧接着的人生海海让我很有感触。快乐伤心我自己决定！
然后阿信仍然在做那个丢硬币的动作。呵呵。都没有新梗！

我很喜欢笑忘歌+垃圾车，忽然好怀念以前和朋友一起跟着五月天的时光
因为见证了他们的友谊，也让我相信我们的友谊会一样坚强。一定会的对吧！sze，khoon，和dq！:D
青春是手牽手坐上了 永不回頭的火車
這一生志願只要 平凡快樂 誰說這樣不偉大呢
青春是人生的實驗課 錯也錯得很值得 就算某天唱起這首歌 眼眶會有一點濕熱
：）

如烟真让人感慨岁月不饶人……有沒有那麼一種永遠　永遠不改變？
爲何人生最後會像一張紙屑 還不如一片花瓣曾經鮮豔

然后令人惊喜的是
忽然间冠佑变主唱！而且是唱陈升的一首歌我不记得名字了！！还唱两首歌呵呵真难得！
孙悟空是五月天其他四个人轮流唱！ :D
玛莎一个人弹着吉他唱明白……超级无敌难得！！！！^.^ 非常开心的玛莎迷~

约翰兰农的基因其实是演唱会的主轴哈哈所以当然要唱咯！
然后少不了终结孤单，志明与春娇，温柔，拥抱。
这个晚上我最遗憾的，是没有听到憨人。=(
据说昨天是有的，今天变成出头天结尾。
虽然我也很喜欢出头天，但是对我而言，演唱会没有憨人，就不完整了。
所以这场演唱会终究还是有遗憾。唉

今晚最令我哭得稀里哗啦的非常意外的是温柔。
可能已经很久没有听到这首歌了，可能它唤醒了某些关于五月天的记忆
但是真的非常非常感动。无法用言语形容的。谢谢五月天。真心的，谢谢。

去了那么多演唱会，我想，
只有在五月天的演唱会，才能够听到整个体育馆一起哼唱的那种力量
只有在五月天的演唱会，才能够听到回忆从耳中眼中脑海中一并闪过

再一次，谢谢你们，谢谢。我很庆幸，我选择了回家。

今天是1月1号。我21岁的第一天。

早上醒来本来还是好好的，但到晚上就破功了。都是我没用。
让2009年只有微笑吧。
今天和secia吃了一顿很饱的自助餐
差点买了一盒很贵的颜色笔
吃了一块waffle
换了部落格版面
发呆

让2009年只有微笑吧。
new year resolution:
1。gpa 4.5以上
2。积极创作
3。更好的金钱管理
4。灵命更成长

不知不觉一起走过了两个月，见证了三个圆月。每一次看到圆月都会想起转捩点的那天晚上。

我是属于慢热型的人，所以或许有时候真的似乎很善变。:p 我也在努力的了解自己啊，但是很感谢你对我的呵护和包容。

误打误撞的“烛光晚餐”，虽然花了很多钱但是我却很感动，差点失去仪态大哭一场。呵呵！那可说是一生中最难忘的晚餐前三名了。

一起去看我最喜欢的acapella组合budak pantai的表演，呵呵。你好乖，虽然听不懂还是陪着我。你最伟大了！

漂亮的圣诞树！在你面前我总是可以像个小孩一样自在，可以任性的活在自己天真的世界，觉得好幸福 =) 一万分感谢

然后回到宿舍就向妈妈报告今天所发生的一切呵呵。

很久没有回来了，或许是懒惰吧，也或许是太忙碌。最近真的很容易疲惫，每每忙完事情就好想睡觉 =x 这几个星期都在忙impresario的auditions，还有hall production的彩排，我的写歌进度快赶不及了，完蛋。也忙着帮教授赶文件和帮忙做research。还有自己的一些零零碎碎的事情。好想有很多很多个可以睡觉的小时 :p

近期在疯狂的迷恋twilight saga，一口气在很忙的期间读完4本书，简直是太崇拜edward了，因为迷上猎命师传奇而爱上所有有关吸血鬼的故事，所以也算是有点爱屋及乌，哈哈！但是我喜欢作者对edward与bella感情的刻画，还有故事的编排，呵呵，所以还是有点沉迷在那个世界里 XD 多希望还有更多本可以读！

最近下了很多歌，但都没时间听，还有很多电影及连续剧吨着没时间看，我看这个假期是看不了了…… T.T

星期日要回家了！万岁~等不及看到新漆好的家……

很快的竟然到了月尾
弟弟生日快乐！是明天
回家仅仅5天
我享受呼吸槟城的空气，还有周围的缓慢
可以吃喝玩乐不做事真是世界上最幸福的事情
家里的大家都安好
尤其是cash和tobias，不见两个月竟然给我长得那么胖！！！
写到这里忽然好想家 =( 下次回家不知道是什么时候，12月已经铁定期满
唉。忽然词穷。唉。
有时候疲惫真让人感到无助

我又要来recount从上一次写到现在发生的重大事件了哈哈
话说昨天去了code edge 2做招待，爽暴，我超喜欢看街舞，第一次现场看！
但是当然小杰还是我心中第一，呵呵。并没有看到有跳出自己的风格的人/组呢。
总之还是很爽因为自己不会跳舞所以很是羡慕呢

星期五则是和朋友相聚与hall production的场地观察。
lee foundation theatre是无敌非常的大呀！！！唤回了我对舞台的钟爱。
可降可升的orchestral pit，圆形超大的升降台，accoustic panels与帘幕
我戏演得不好，唱歌也一般，但是我很爱舞台！！！好庆幸可以是hall production的一分子。
整个早上和khoon盲目地到处逛打发时间，本来是要看早场的戏。
后来还是有看啦，画皮，我一直都喜欢聊斋志异，但是出乎意料的很喜欢这个电影 =) 或许是电影对爱的表达吧！不完美成就了完美
下午则是在casualpoet消耗。真是舒适的空间，不过好像被我们的七嘴八舌坏了气氛。
casualpoet加油！

星期四则是从槟城回来。意外地失眠，发现窗外像一幅画一样的星星！一辈子没有看过这么多这么亮的星星。迷迷糊糊地拖着行李回南大，迷迷糊糊地开了一整天的会。吃了不怎么样但是很好笑的火锅，迷迷糊糊的半夜又跑去吃宵夜。大概是疯了。

星期四那天几乎没有去到simpsons bbq因为整个晚上都在弹琴。
不是重点。星期四那天去focusmusic洽谈，黎沸挥老师的长篇大论让我很内疚
有点忘了他说什么，但是说真的我好像渐渐放弃了音乐的梦想。
好像，渐渐掉了。路上掉了。我觉得我对不起自己。
我得认真想想，自己到底要什么。
写着这篇部落格的时候我的歌把wanga弄哭了。真是对不起她。
但是这不是曾经我想要的吗？自己的音乐能够触摸到另一个人。
怎么办 怎么办 怎么办

这里收录了些我从开始创作到现在写的一些歌曲，希望可以为自己留下回忆，提醒自己曾经很努力的梦想过，争取过……并且要记得继续往梦想奔跑。另外也收录了我的好友写的一首歌，希望音乐的路上，我不是孤独的。

爸妈：一直都很支持我，不管我做什么。Wanga：成为我生命中最重要的音乐知己，这路上如果没有你，我会是孤独迷失的。

Khoon&Sze：希望能够继续站在曾经一起拥有过的舞台。

Amy：我最可爱的女儿和好友，别放弃爱。

i.Nnovation-Chengwei&Dickson：谢谢你们相信我，也让我离我的梦更靠近一些些。Mayday：让我从愤恨中重新站起来，从泪水中重新微笑，做个倔强的憨人。

张悬，陈绮贞，林一峰：让我感受学习对音乐的态度，及不向世俗低头的勇气。我会加油。

亲爱的父神：一次又一次的宽恕，一次又一次的爱。谢谢您给了我对音乐的热诚和天赋，以及一双弹琴的手。

所有支持我的人和听众，感谢你们对一个努力探头的小草浇灌的信心。

can't believe i wrote that a year ago..我对不起我自己。

两年前的今天，你走了

时不时还是会想起你

你开朗顽皮的笑声、你专注弹吉它的神情、你照镜子的模样

大家还是很努力的活着，在天堂的你看到了吗？

今年的活力营我将再次担任组长的职位，上一次当组长，有你这位顾问照着

这次，没有了。

但是我会很努力很努力，成为神喜悦的孩子。

依然怀念着你，送上我满满的思绪与回忆

照片转自http://ttjoyce.blogspot.com/

昨天真是太糟了，走了gurney plaza的三间唱片行都找不到王若琳和方大同的新专辑，话说我是真的很久没有逛唱片行了，还好最后我在cd rama的小角落看到khalil的一张新专辑。意外的是竟然在artist gallery看到这位太太的专辑，太希奇了。不过本人没有买，等领了薪水再说吧，反正不急，不觉得会有人去买啦 :D 不过我对于槟城的唱片行和书店是真的太有意见了=.= 分类及秩序都没有，搞得要找唱片或书都好难，找新的东西更是难上加难。而且店员对作家或歌手都不熟悉，问他们等于是白问！他们也不会帮你找一找或是查一查有没有存货，直接跟你说不知道！rars. 所以我的梦想是等我赚够钱了，我要在这里开书店兼唱片行，要像台湾的独立书店一样有个性的~推广槟城马来西亚的文化气息！好我知道这大概很难实现，不过刀大说说出来会被嘲笑的梦想才有实践的价值啊！！所以下个周末接了兼职，虽然不算赚很多但是算累积经验吧，我要变成真真正正的工作狂了！

在facebook上作了太多心理测验，奇妙的是有些还蛮准的，不过嫌他们在我的主页上碍手碍脚的，转过来放作纪念！XD
 
Do you really love music?
You don't care what other people think, you love your music and you listen to it all the time you can barely sit through your classes without it and going to dances it painful for you because they play crappy music.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?
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London, England! You are witty and sophisticated with a proud heritage. You like looking good but you are more preoccupied with doing well what is the right thing to do. You can be a little moody and stuck-up sometimes but you are quite resilient and humourous. People often consider you to be polite, refined and polished, but they know that inside that sometimes cold exterior you have a great sense of humor and a warm heart.

What's your love language?
Physical touch. Your primary language of love is physical touch. A hug or a touch on the shoulder can comfort you and show you how much a loved one cares for you. especially when you're feelign doen, physical touch more than anything else can cheer you up and bring you closer to loved ones.

What type of Heart do you have?
Careful Heart. you take your time and do not fall in love easily. You give 50% in a relationship and expect 50% in return. you like to handle your problems directly and immediately. You are alright with not seeing him/her so often. you expect the person to change for you. you measure your desire to whomever you love by the amount of desire he shows you. You fall out of love easily.

What kind of dress are you?
Classic ball gown. You're one of a kind, not many people go for a classic ball gown these days. but thats what makes you so special! You turn up to the party and the mouths drop! You always make sure you look elegant and your best. but remember don't over do it!

What Kind of Bride Will You Be?
An Unconventional Bride! You're probably the type of girl who never considered getting married-until you met *him*. You're not a big fan of white dresses, church weddings, or cheesy DJs. That's okay-you'll do it your way... whether that means a Vegas wedding or guys as bridesmen. While you may not toss the bouquet, it will still be the most romantic day of yoru life!

What Icecream are you?
You are a Chocolate Ice Cream Girl. Dramatic, powerful, flirty.
我是喜欢巧克力但是。。最后那几个字是怎样？！

How Do Men See You?
Choosy. Men notice you light years before you notice them. you take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky. You aren't looking for a quick flirt-but a memorable encounter. It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait.

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